homesick??

colorado springs is probably the most boring city in the entire universe. but, our mountains are beautiful! (this picture is one of pikes peak that i took while at garden of the gods.)


the other day i was driving on the highway, my commute from school to home, just a normal day. i was listening to a very sad song from the pride and prejudice soundtrack. i looked up and the mountains filled my entire view and the sky was a piercing blue. i don't know why, but the mountains looked so clear that day. snow was covering them and i could see every detail, or so it seemed. and you the mountains are really really blue! (not purple) the feeling swept over me. i thought, "if i leave colorado someday, i am going to miss those mountains." it was so strange to think that i actually will miss this place. that the springs has really become home for me in the last year and a half. the feeling was so strange because i have not feel the "this place has potential for homesickness" feeling since i left germany. of course, i will not be as sad to leave here as i was when i moved from kandern, germany, but i think i'll still be sad. i have formed an attachment to the beauty of this place. of coure, i always do that. i miss germany for the landscape almost as much as anything else. it's funny that i do this all the time. i miss the physical features of a place maybe in order not the miss the memories as much. of course, i don't have any memories of colorado springs to miss. i miss estes park after one summer more than i would miss the springs after two years. it has to do with friends, being happy, feeling settled.

anyway, it was strange, but nice to know i have made a new "home" here. even if i know i will never love it as much as my childhood home. but in a way, i'm still in "home" transition. i haven't found the place i will live my life out yet. of course because i love to move so much, i'm not sure i will ever settle in one town for long. but two years seems like an eternity. when i'm done with my training and schooling, i think i want to move again.

can't shake that third culture kid wanderlust.