another soap box speech.

i have come to a place where i finally understand how uncool we all were in high school. how silly i was to look up to those labeled "popular" and think i was less than them. in so many ways i was more than them. we were only in high school and all equally stupid. but when you're in high school everything is amplified and you think you're the most important person in the world. when you grow up and get out of the small high school (and even college) bubble you see that life is not a popularity/beauty contest. even those who society view as unattractive can make it far in life.

i am also no longer as intimidated by "tough" people. you know, the people with tattoos, crazy leather jackets, rough voices and scowls. or those moody, broody emo-kids with green hair, too many piercings and too much eyeliner. they're just as insecure and flustered as the rest of us. the people who really scare me are the tough rude people. the outside reflects the inside with them. they are tough and mean. and i hate them.

i'm learning more and more that appearances are arbitrary. we may look different and act differently from each other, but we're not different on the inside. we all go through the same struggles and have the same fears. and giving someone worth based on their looks is the stupidest thing since twitter. i mean really, how shallow can you be. some people may argue that i'm only saying this because i'm not beautiful. but i am. not in the super model or movie star way, or even in the pretty blonde high school cheerleader way. i would play the nerd and outcast in any high school drama. but i have value and that makes me beautiful. and yes, it makes me beautiful on the outside too. it's not all just inner beauty here. take that you beautiful popular kids! take that life!